My quest ends at Fullybooked

There it is! After a month of marauding underground e-communities / harassing irc.irchighway.net #ebooks for a free e-book, I finally gave in to buying a hard copy. This is one of the unplanned purchases I had this week (hopefully it all ends here). Earlier, April and I had a chat about the blog entry I made of this book... *cut to the chase* it ended with her saying she'll see if Fullybooked has this and me suggesting I come with her. When I asked for this at the store, I did not anticipate it being on stock (girl at the counter even knew who authored this *amazed*, this must be a popular buy). So I was slightly taken aback when, I swear out of thin air, ate whipped out a copy and plopped it in front of me. Alangan namang 'di ko pa bilihin, 'di ba? Insight into this book later.
The other purchase I mentioned somewhere up this post is a 2010 planner. I am, as sure as day follows night, not a planner-planning-planner person (planner-planning-planner does not make sense or will ever make sense, it just sounded good) . I had one last year but I knew, past the scrawny writings littered all over the days of a week, the weeks of a month, and a couple of months at the beginning of the year, I'll never get back to those things I scrawled and use them to plan my days ahead. Yet, when I stumbled upon this planner at a blog owned by a ka-BACA back in elbi let's just say... IT HAD ME AT The "I-was-supposed-to-get-that-coffeehouse-planner-but-I-got-fat/broke-on-the-10th-frappe" Planner 2010 title. Get it from here. More on this planner soon.

Post shout-out (a.k.a. senseless late reaction): Did you feel dismissed?

All along I thought it was Ethan Hawke

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.

Write, for example, 'The night is shattered
and the blue stars shiver in the distance.'

The night wind revolves in the sky and sings.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
I loved her, and sometimes she loved me too.

Through nights like this one I held her in my arms
I kissed her again and again under the endless sky.

She loved me sometimes, and I loved her too.
How could one not have loved her great still eyes.

Tonight I can write the saddest lines.
To think that I do not have her. To feel that I have lost her.

To hear the immense night, still more immense without her.
And the verse falls to the soul like dew to the pasture.

What does it matter that my love could not keep her.
The night is shattered and she is not with me.

This is all. In the distance someone is singing. In the distance.
My soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

My sight searches for her as though to go to her.
My heart looks for her, and she is not with me.

The same night whitening the same trees.
We, of that time, are no longer the same.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but how I loved her.
My voice tried to find the wind to touch her hearing.

Another's. She will be another's. Like my kisses before.
Her voice. Her bright body. Her infinite eyes.

I no longer love her, that's certain, but maybe I love her.
Love is so short, forgetting is so long.

Because through nights like this one I held her in my arms
my soul is not satisfied that it has lost her.

Though this be the last pain that she makes me suffer
and these the last verses that I write for her.

- Neftali Ricardo Reyes Basoalto

I first heard this in a Speech Communication class I attended. It's a good feeling to learn, albeit a pitiful memory capacity, that I still remember some things from the past - along with blunders such as the belief that it was Ethan Hawke doing the reading. :P

...on Room 316

while I was watching Friends earlier...i suddenly remembered my room mates back in yupi...and 316 was our room number...3rd floor 16th room...2nd to the last room... nakakamiss din...kahit na 3 months lang akong nag dorm...nd ko makklimutan ang mga roomies k...let me tell you a little about Room 316...
anim kaming room mates: AKO, c LIBAY, c NAY, c Lyn, c Julie and c Iris

c Libay, nung una kong makilala siya ay isang comsci student, ngayon ay isa n syang bs stat..hehe...ito ang henyo ng 316 pagdating sa numbers..she's the only person i know who doesn't give up easily on something..and has this unquenchable thirst for learning..yung tipong mga pang Dr. PhD, PhD, PhD.

c Nay, all the way from Leyte, BS Chem and galing PhiSci..wow..ito naman all around henyo..pero mas pronounced ang pagiging writer..lam nyo ba sa yearbook nila..nagsulat siya ng story set in the future about sa kinahinatnan ng mga batchmates nya..astig..nd k kc alam yung writing form..basta ang alam k magaling..

c Lyn, c Julie and Iris. Lyn and Julie were former BA Socio, now Civil Eng n and c Iris ka course ko. Sa kanila ako mas naging ‘close’ siguro dahil na rin sa sila yung madalas kong nakikita kc yung naunang dalawa..gala..at siguro compatible ng kaunti ang mga scheds nmin..na mi miss ko yung mga kwentuhan nmin sa may study table sa hall..pati n yung pag kakain kami sa may table nmin sa loob ng room..at siyempre sa paghuhugas ng pinggan at kutsara..at pagtabi ko kay Julie pag natatakot ako..at yung sabay sabay kaming nag aayos ng mga gamit na dadalhin sa banyo sa pagligo..yung nagpapasama ako kay Lyn sa banyo pag brownout(UPLagingBrownout)..yung paghingi ko ng tulong kay Iris pag may writing assignment kmi..yung pag po post nmin ng messages sa kanya kanyang aparador..yung paghingi ng blue book pag nalimutang bumili..hiraman ng libro..yung sabay na pagbaba sa bundok kapag naiwan ng jeep ng dorm..yung kwentuhan namin about sa subjects, profs., crushes sa loob at labas ng dorm, sa mga magkasintahan n nkita nming naglalampungan sa canteen, sa kapit"room” namin na pinakikitaan daw ng mga multo.. marami pa kaso hahaba

malabo mang mabasa nyo mga room mates k…gustong kong malaman nyo na mahal ko kayo…at sa maikling pagsasama natin…REALITY became a more tangible thing for me…thank you very much…love you all…
Dadufalza's..hehe

...on answers

tagal na rin...huling entry k pla ay noong ika-lima ng setyembre pa...

what's new in my life...

well...first major news would probably be: ::drum rolls:: I AM FINALLY LEAVING YuPiElBi and I AM GOING TO TRANSFER TO MAPUA...

after a year and a sem at yupielbi i have finally put an end to it...

many would ask me this: WHY?...and i always find myself on the defensive...kasi nga nman...as some would say..."bakit ka pa lilipat e yupi na yon"...another..."lilipat ka pa doon sa mahal ang tuition"...then...”dpat noong umpisa pa lang..."...and the list goes on...

I know it would be unfair if I go trashing that they don’t have the right to question my decision…well I probably would 2 years ago…::sidetracked::…anyways

So WHY nga ba?..here are the reasons:

1) I wasn’t happy in my course…as simple as that…well when you really think about that HAPPINESS factor it won’t be that simple…there is much more beyond that simple word…I believe that I will not be productive when I become a Communication Arts graduate…I will not be able to fully realize and utilize my potential if I end up becoming a Communication Arts professional...I will be more helpful to our society if I follow my heart…
2) I know for a fact that to become succesful in that course you really have to excel in the communication skills, both in writing and in speech…I do well…but it won’t be enough…so this is kind of like a “career move”
3) I will not be able to survive life in yupi if I stayed another sem…proof of that is my experience in my last sem’s enrollment..oooh…just thinking of that…ahh!…I’m not exaggerating but it really is a traumatic experience…you see…originally I was only given 9 units…just imagine what I felt when I looked down on my form 5 and saw that I only have 3 subjects registered…what’s more is…picture this…almost ¾ of the student population has a case like mine…so it means there are many of us who have to prerog for subjects to complete 18 units…to prerog is to look up subjects you want to take up and then go to the professors who teach that subject and have him or her take you in his or her class…sounds easy ne?…but to be able to do this you have to take down the schedules of your choice of subj. and your choice of time and then go to the venue of that subj. to have the professor teaching that sign in your form 26…that’s the rule…you cannot personally see them in their cubicle or office it has to be on the schedule of your chosen time of class of that subj…another problem is the maximum no. of students per class is 37…there are subjects we can call “in demand”…you have so many competition for a subj. you really have to take…another thing is some teachers make it hard for the “preroggers”…they make us sing or dance in front of a class just to get a slot in that class…I even experienced “draw lots”…I wasn’t lucky..hehehe…it actually took me a week to finish my registration…inhumane!…so you understand now what I feel just thinking of going through that again next sem…of course hindi nman ganito lang kababaw…but this event had been the “last straw”…
but despite all these, I do not have any regrets…maraming pinabaon sa akin ang yupi…for that I really am grateful…being a part of that institution added a lot to my self confidence…”you are the ‘cream of the crop’ and the ‘2% of the whole population of the students who graduated from your batch’” as they say, has not gone down the drain…it’s a big thing for me…because I have little self confidence…

Well…I am struggling here to find the right words to express the whole story…because I am afraid that you’ll judge me…na tanga ako…na hindi ko lang siguro kinaya ang skul ko dati kayo ako nag transfer…na nagsayang lang ako ng oras…na tinapon ko lang ang lahat ng ganon ganon lang…puro sayang, sayang, sayang…

I may have prepared answers to justify my action…It may have taken me a page and a half to come up with this entry to answer questions…pero alam mo kapag ubos na ang mga kasagutan sa mga tanong mo at sa mga tanong ko meron pa akong isang nakatago: you just have to know when to give up.

…and that sums it up.

HAPPY 2!

Remember the entry about the UNO I got in the Chapter 1 I did…actually that entry is just below this one..hehe..well…and then I also mentioned there bout the Chapter 2 we were to do…well..well..well..I got an UNO again!…surprisingly…wasn’t really expecting it…
We were to choose one from the ten novels in the novel by Italo Calvino If on a winter’s night a traveler…???…you see…If on a winter’s night a traveler is a story of a reader (has no given name just called the “READER” but the rest of the characters are named) in search of the ten novels he never got to finish or never got to read up to the 2nd chapter
it started when he picked up a copy of the novel If on a winter’s night a traveler…later when he read it he found out that after the first chapter he won’t be able to read further because several signatures got duplicated…its like an experience of de ja vu…you are past reading page 17 and now in page 32 and then turning to the next page you discover you’re back again to page 17…dumoble…its like that…the reader sought the origin of the 1st chapter he read…learning instead that what he read was actually not If on a winters night a traveler…there was a mix up of the pages from that novel with another novel…so instead of replacing his copy with the real If on a winter’s night he opt to have it replaced with the novel he had started to read…discovering later that it is completely different from the one he has started reading…but still he read it and got hooked and once again…malas siguro talaga sya…found out that the rest of the chapters are composed of blank pages…reader went to the source of all these..the publisher..this went on…encountering different problems like plagiarism, with the real author, etc…leading him to the reading of 10 chapter ones from 10 different novels…he got mixed up in the confusion until he cannot tell anymore which chapter one came from what novel and if those novels did exist or those chapters beyond the chapter ones he has read…the ending was he ends up reading the first novel he intended to read before all of these happened…If on a winter’s night a travel…ironic ne?
The interesting thing about this is that it is written in the 2nd person and the 10 novels are written in the 1st person narration…the 10 novels are also included there, well of course only the chapter ones…so it is like you are side by side journeying with the “reader”, step by step actually experiencing what the “READER” is going through…you actually get to read the chapter ones and also feel the disappointment and yun feeling n nabibitin just like what the “READER” in the novel feels as you read him…
After we finished this novel, someone from our class asked our teacher if those “novels” from the novel we just read exists…medyo magulo noh…it’s because the novel If on a winter’s night a traveler is not a conventional novel or written in the traditional way…it is a metafiction, a fiction of fiction reading the experience of reading…or another comparison is…it’s like watching the tv and in the screen you see someone also watching the tv…
Bottom line is I chose one novel from those 10 novels and did a continuation, a chapter 2…and I got an UNO…sinuswerte lng tlaga ako siguro or…hehehe…it’s really a good feeling, having your work appreciated…especially when the pressure is really tough…from the teachers who accepts nothing but excellence and from your co- students who makes you feel like you don’t deserve to be there…it uplifts the self-esteem…nobela na toh! Kaya OLC kaya natin toh!

HAPPY!

WAHAHAHA!

I did this paper in ENG4 ... and guess what?!

WAHAHAHA!

I got an UNO!

WAHAHAHA!

We were to create our own version of the 1st chapter of the novel If on a winter's night a traveler...

(excerpt from chapter one):
You are about to begin reading Italo Calvino's new novel, If on a winter's night a traveler. Relax. Concentrate. Dispel every other thought. Let the world around you fade. Best to close the door; the TV is always on in the next room. Tell the others right away, "No, I don't want to watch TV!" Raise your voice--they won't hear you otherwise--"I'm reading! I don't want to be disturbed!" Maybe they haven't heard you, with all that racket; speak louder, yell; "I'm beginning to read Italo Calvino's new novel!" Or if you prefer, don't say anything; just hope they'll leave you alone.

Chapter one is about how the Reader got his copy of the novel...so the thing we have to do is retell our own experience on how we got our own copy of the novel...sounds easy right?...but the thing is the chapter one is told in the second person narration...YOU...nywayz...

I really was shocked! when our prof returned our papers ... when I got hold of it ...uhh... can't believe my luck! ... maybe there really is a supreme being up there ... i haven't expected it ...

I would have forever questioned the sanity of my prof, for her to give me such a grade, had it not been for the comments she placed there in my paper ...
to cite some:
1st paragraph : "great beginning"
"This is so witty. First time I've read this."
"The only 'blight' to your Chapter One" *nagkamali lang ako sa tense ng word na bind, should be bound instead i typed bounded
ito ang nakakawindang: "The elegance of your writing 'matches' the elegance of the Times New Roman font. Third progression, full of clarity and the emotion (of your desperation for your copy) is fleshed-out. Good work!"

But then for a moment when I peeked at the paper of a classmate and saw that she also got an uno my happiness kind of went a notch down...coz i thought she gave us all a grade of 1 since it was about our own experiences...but when class was over and i had a chat with some comarts students taking ENG4 too under the same prof I have...i learned that most of them got a grade around 1.75-2.5...talk about ego trip!

I just can't seem to stop bragging about it ... coz you see ... last semester wasn't really "my sem" ... the highest i got in the paperworks was 2.25 ... but this sem ...ha... talk about a major resolution ... actually when i think of it now ... this sem the lowest grade i got is 1.25 for the paper i did on the comparison between reading and sex...all the rest are UNO!...

I am so grateful to that prof...Ms Amy Colanta...she will never know how she helped me gain my confidence back and made me believe in myself...she made me say "may ibubuga pala ako..."... she created a mark in my life ... like a primordial source of confidence ... where i can always go back to and have that self esteem, i always seem to lose, recharged... that whenever i feel like im on the end list of the "mga walang ibubugang estudyante" i can always go back to that episode in my life where someone appreciated my work enough to credit it with an uno...

...heavy drama na to...

I am ... HAPPY!... hope this continues...i guess when you really put your mind to it...everything is possible...add some passion and a piece of yourself to what you are doing...and voila...

sana tuloy tuloy na to...

so till next time...i gotta finish nman the Chapter 2...yes...tuwang tuwa ata yun prof kya nagpagawa nman ngayon ng Chapter 2...cge na bye...GOOD LUCK TO ALL!
HAPPY! *meron ba non?* HAPPY!

Talk about an embarassing

we had this activity in COMA101...we were supposed to express a situation, that will be given by our professor, through the use of our voice...fortunately...because i was kinda getting nervous...he told us that he only has two situations and will only be needing a pair for each...a boy and a girl...the boy will be named john...and the girl will be called...guess...MARSHA! ha...!...instruction: the only thing we will utter during this activity is the name of our partners which is John and Marsha nga for the boys and girls, respectively...parang
girl: John
boy: Marsha
girl:John!
boy:Marsha!
parang ganon...but there should be a variation in the intensity of the pitch...portrayal of the situation through the use of voice only

so yun nga...the first situartion was kinda easy...it was about a couple having a heated argument on something...when the first two who will play the part of John and Marsha was called i felt relieved...so yun nga...they had their exchange of Johns and Marshas...and the rest of us were all laughing hard...because the guy was just so cute when he delivers his Marshas...
until it was finished n nga...

so we went to the next situation...about a couple having one of their "intimate" moments together (making looovvveee)...our prof looked at the seatplan to choose the next people who will do the activity...that time i was talking to my seatmate and we were laughing at the situation given...little did i know...guess this wasn't my lucky day...you guessed right!!!...i was one of the "LUCKY" two called...HAH!...the funny thing is i had this tinge of suspicion in my head that i will be a CHOSEN ONE...and that moment my prof first opened his mouth...i knew it will be me...after nga ntawag ako sbi pa nya..."tatawa tawa k p jan ha..." so yun nga...my partner and me stood in front of the class...my classmates were all laughing...in a good way...me and "him" were laughing also...because the situation is really kinda absurd...and some of my friends there...yun mga ka batch ko...were like "GO JOANN!" p*******a...

so nag start n nga kmi ni partner...it was kinda awkward...like the rest of the class was hanging on our every Johns and Marshas...yuck...nadidiri tlaga ako nun mga oras n yon...as in...what do i know about it...my partner said p nga "sir mga bata p po kmi..."...pero third year n yon...sa loob loob k 'maniwala ako syo!'...para sa anu pa yun pagiging top one ng yupi elbi among the unversities with the highest rate of students practicing premarital sex at nauuwi sa pregnancy...landi!

and so as they say "everything must come to an end"...it did end...hhhhhaaaaaaaa...finally...that's it...i never want to experience that again...

P.S.
don't you think that is injustice...MALAY K B S PAKIKIPAG SEX...!
Kama Sutra!

I hate it when they do that

ugh...i hate it when they do that...you know...what all students commonly dislike...POP QUIZ!...

earlier our prof. in jap10 gave us a quiz on hiragana...and you could say i didn't do well...my mind went blank...that's what happens when i'm not prepared...i seem to forget everything...and not to mention the quiz was about japanese characters! a japanese word was given and we're supposed to translate it to hiragana...i think i got 12 out of 20...i just can't seem to accept it...coz i actually did an excellent job in our first long exam...a 94.5 out of 100...hehe...so much for humility...(pero kun c fhrea yun mlamang perfect or 1 mistake lng...hehehe...pish fhrea)...bawi ako nxt time...ha!

i included here some japanese characters, written by my own hand...some of my favorites...
wa fu o ha

CLASS SCHEDULE!

here i am making an entry...kc wlang mgawa...mamyang hapon p class k...5:30-7:00pm...first and only class...ganda ng sked k noh...since nbanggit k n rn lng to...better to show you guys n rn my class sched...pra in case n my gimik tyo...d b

MWF
11-12 SPCM102
12-1 SOSC1
1-2 VACANT!
2-3 ENG4
3-4 FIL21
4-5:30 COMA101 *MW lng*

TTh
5:30-7 JAP10

SPCM102(SpeechCommunication)-Voice and Diction
SOSC1(SocialSciences)-Behavioral Sciences
ENG4-Masterpieces in World Lit
FIL21-Philippine Folklore (Favorite class!)
COMA101(CommunicationArts)-Language and Communication
JAP10(Japanese)

*im happy wid my sked...kc sunod sunod...and i get to stay up late at night...night owl...i suggest n...for the olcians...do this din...pra at least may alam tyo about s mga pnili ntng course and the subj. we're taking up...and most importantly may alam tyo s sked ng isa't isa...pra pag my gimik...hahahaha...

ei nd b tyo nonood cheering s uaap