October 31, 2009

I am a human unfazed by technological comforts

I am a human unfazed by the benefits that come with technology (please see testimonal below). 2 months ago, my PC had let out its final breath, a long, painful suffering for both of us. When it finally died I did not even bother reviving it. It was during this time when I found a new hobby in buying pirated DVDs of U.S. tv series and playing it on our dusty, old, heavy Xbox (I sometimes think that it's a total waste of its full potential).

*Rant enters, coat swishing behind*

It is not due to above boldened fact that it happened. I was anticipating an evening with the group of interns at SGH, when absent-minded/distracted/removed from this world/careless/airheaded me picked up the Xbox's plug with my right hand and inserted it into the extension's socket held by my left. If I take this scene to a different setting, say Japan, this would not make its way into a weblog and my eyes are now following the handsome blackness of Dr. Preston Burke. As abnormal (or normal?) as our country is compared to its neighbor up North with the matter of power outlets running 220V, our 110V Xbox did not stand a chance. A marriage out of hell. It wasn't even inserted fully, when I heard a magnified version of a pop that you'll hear from pinching that plastic with small 'bubble rings' used to wrap electonics.
Anyway, I am now deeply contemplating whether I want or need the Xbox fixed, or if I am indeed a human indifferent to the refuge offered by technology (short-lived perhaps, but still a haven I may never experience in this ordinary life).

I went through six years without a mobile phone. Disconnected from the world but not as unreachable as you may deem. My friends and I will have to make some pre-arrangements to gimiks, like where they'll meet me at a specified time. While the rest of the universe passed through the phases of showing off (latest, most expensive), topping off (colored? polyphonic? with camera? woah tv?!) and eventually died down to cellphones as simply a necessity, I had none. Beforehand, I've broken up with my long-time affair with T.V. I remember mornings at elementary school spent crying over not being able to stay home to watch the finale of 'Nadia' or 'Snow White'. Today, kids will not experience these heartaches because they can always catch a missed episode in an online video streaming site or through pirated DVDs. Anyway, I woke up one day to broken televisions at home and I just learned not to need them anymore.


"Isa sa pinakamasarap na feeling sa mundo ay yung gusto mo tingnan yun crush mo...

pero 'di mo magawa

kasi nakatingin s'ya sa iyo."

October 29, 2009

A Christmas without my paboritong pinsan

Photobucket It's hard to say goodbye to those you hold so dearly, just as hard to say hello to someone you want to hold so tight.

- Jeffrey C. Datur

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October 28, 2009

Scribbling pauses

I stop.
A hair strand away from a moment. My eyes soften, seeming to see an ocean view against the stark white wall through a blind of deep black lashes. The sound of Grey's dying heart on TV transforms into faint white noise.


A phrase had already formed in the left temporal lobe of my brain to describe what just happened.

I found my perch in the blogosphere.

October 25, 2009

Arizona: Episode 01

Lying, my body 45 degrees twisted, right half of eyeglass frame flattened, I felt-slash-heard the unfamiliar rumble across the mattress. I slowly untwisted to the opposite direction, half-wondering, half-knowing where it came from. I let it out of its constraints, held onto it and read:

joann.coffee tau tom.u lyk?tambay lang..

My furry brows made a bridge of itself for the hundredth time this week as my brain rummages through old archives of conversations like this between us. I stopped. I replied. Then my mind formed the sound, "hmmm". Tomorrow I'll know.

October 23, 2009


May mga eksena sa gabi na 'di nabubura ng paghimbing. Habang pikit, ito'y nailulutong bugnot at sa pagdilat ay ihahaing kunot (sa balat man o sa kalamnang nag-iingay, "bok... bok... bok... bok").

October 22, 2009

Blank stares

Laughter does not cease because it might cause stomach pain. It goes away when all you can concentrate on is the pain from missing ' and the regret of losing '.

October 20, 2009

The Itsi bitsy spider climb up the water spout;

Today, a billboard of a skin product reminded me of a friend, whom reminded me of him. The one who was once my Itsi.

In rare pauses, I mits him.

October 16, 2009


"Did it ever occur to you that not everyone has the compulsive need to sort, organize and label the entire world around them?"
- Hofstadter to Cooper

After hitting a google search on the subject. Trivia: There is a band named Suicidal Tendencies.

Not everybody has the "buwanang bisita"

One of the many abubots I place sentimental value to. But good news! I'm cured! I have recently embraced clean living at my work desk.

Maldita irl

Model: Eugene H. Krabb
What does it pinch: ... pututuys

Christmas gift from a gay friend

I hate seafoods

I am a charity case

October 16, 2009
12:51 AM


Ano daw yun kasabihan? 'pag 'di ka makatulog, may nilalang na nag-iisip sa iyo. Well... sumpain siya!

October 16, 2009
12:05 AM

October 13, 2009

I am lovesick

Nakakainis! I want to write. But I don't have the words. I don't even know If I want the words to be known. S*** talaga!

wishing she's somebody who can write on will,