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tagal na rin...huling entry k pla ay noong ika-lima ng setyembre pa...

what's new in my life...

well...first major news would probably be: ::drum rolls:: I AM FINALLY LEAVING YuPiElBi and I AM GOING TO TRANSFER TO MAPUA...

after a year and a sem at yupielbi i have finally put an end to it...

many would ask me this: WHY?...and i always find myself on the defensive...kasi nga nman...as some would say..."bakit ka pa lilipat e yupi na yon"...another..."lilipat ka pa doon sa mahal ang tuition"...then...”dpat noong umpisa pa lang..."...and the list goes on...

I know it would be unfair if I go trashing that they don’t have the right to question my decision…well I probably would 2 years ago…::sidetracked::…anyways

So WHY nga ba?..here are the reasons:

1) I wasn’t happy in my course…as simple as that…well when you really think about that HAPPINESS factor it won’t be that simple…there is much more beyond that simple word…I believe that I will not be productive when I become a Communication Arts graduate…I will not be able to fully realize and utilize my potential if I end up becoming a Communication Arts professional...I will be more helpful to our society if I follow my heart…
2) I know for a fact that to become succesful in that course you really have to excel in the communication skills, both in writing and in speech…I do well…but it won’t be enough…so this is kind of like a “career move”
3) I will not be able to survive life in yupi if I stayed another sem…proof of that is my experience in my last sem’s enrollment..oooh…just thinking of that…ahh!…I’m not exaggerating but it really is a traumatic experience…you see…originally I was only given 9 units…just imagine what I felt when I looked down on my form 5 and saw that I only have 3 subjects registered…what’s more is…picture this…almost ¾ of the student population has a case like mine…so it means there are many of us who have to prerog for subjects to complete 18 units…to prerog is to look up subjects you want to take up and then go to the professors who teach that subject and have him or her take you in his or her class…sounds easy ne?…but to be able to do this you have to take down the schedules of your choice of subj. and your choice of time and then go to the venue of that subj. to have the professor teaching that sign in your form 26…that’s the rule…you cannot personally see them in their cubicle or office it has to be on the schedule of your chosen time of class of that subj…another problem is the maximum no. of students per class is 37…there are subjects we can call “in demand”…you have so many competition for a subj. you really have to take…another thing is some teachers make it hard for the “preroggers”…they make us sing or dance in front of a class just to get a slot in that class…I even experienced “draw lots”…I wasn’t lucky..hehehe…it actually took me a week to finish my registration…inhumane!…so you understand now what I feel just thinking of going through that again next sem…of course hindi nman ganito lang kababaw…but this event had been the “last straw”…
but despite all these, I do not have any regrets…maraming pinabaon sa akin ang yupi…for that I really am grateful…being a part of that institution added a lot to my self confidence…”you are the ‘cream of the crop’ and the ‘2% of the whole population of the students who graduated from your batch’” as they say, has not gone down the drain…it’s a big thing for me…because I have little self confidence…

Well…I am struggling here to find the right words to express the whole story…because I am afraid that you’ll judge me…na tanga ako…na hindi ko lang siguro kinaya ang skul ko dati kayo ako nag transfer…na nagsayang lang ako ng oras…na tinapon ko lang ang lahat ng ganon ganon lang…puro sayang, sayang, sayang…

I may have prepared answers to justify my action…It may have taken me a page and a half to come up with this entry to answer questions…pero alam mo kapag ubos na ang mga kasagutan sa mga tanong mo at sa mga tanong ko meron pa akong isang nakatago: you just have to know when to give up.

…and that sums it up.