I saw HIM and HER in a rated X fashion

I was with Din Ryanne and Mark the other other other day. hehehe…They went to GK Onyx to have a practice for their performance at this YFC activity. GK Onyx is a community which is most famous for the houses built by the joint efforts of the “common tao”, who doesn't have formal knowledge on house building but possess only a helping hand and a loving heart. Anyway, I tagged along because I had nothing better to do and what harm can it do me, right?...right?

So there we were. Mark and Din Ryanne were practicing a dance together with YFCs from other schools…THEN came the worship. I was squeamish on the inside, and I think it translated a little to my face, after somebody announced that they take a break to have worship first, which is conducted in the community on a daily basis. I was just standing there listening to what they were singing. I admit I liked their song it does appeal to the youth.

And then I SAW HIM AND HER.

At first I saw HIM. He was wearing this oversized gray polo and shorts; his face has traces of powder in it and his hair stiff from gel. You can tell that he is one of the local kids. HE was singing just like everybody else but he was doing it with his eyes tightly shut, left hand pressed in front of where the hearts is supposed to be and his right hand was stretched up into the air. HE was tapping his foot to the beat of the song while his body is swaying, right..left..right..left, together with the music. Such devotion I saw in his face. And I did not understand it.

Not so far from HIM was HER. She is a mestiza, has flawless skin and moves with finesse. She is what you may call “cute” or “pretty” and you can tell outright that she comes from a well-to-do family. She was standing behind the counter facing the wall, her back to the rest of us. She was singing too, eyes closed, right hand raised not too high and her left on her breast. Unlike HIM, her face held a serene expression but still had a look of concentration. There was a pause in the singing and I saw her open her eyes and looked a little on her surrounding as if checking if someone was watching her and then assumed again her “posing” before. And it couldn’t have been clearer for me. She had been a bit conscious of what people might think of her but what she had that moment was stronger than any notion of what is "acceptable".

At that instant I felt like a voyeur, being privy to a scene where I was not welcomed. Two people at both ends of a spectrum yet they met in a passion and love filled place and it is all for GOD. Totoo pala the things people say about man’s relationship with GOD, that it is really something personal. Your faith in GOD is untouched by "concepts", "ideas" here on earth. It is a gamble to believe in GOD, as Rene Descartes reasoned. It is more logical to believe since it will entail more gain, heaven, and on the opposite what could you possibly lose if GOD does not really exist.

So what am I really saying here...this is a revelation for me. Another side of the story and it seems that I am just waiting for bits like this that will push me into determining what I really feel towards "GOD". Baby steps at a time...and eventually I'll get there.

SPONGEBOB!

I'm a couch potato...

“Finally!” yan ang sinigaw ko nang magkatuluyan na sila Rachel and Ross…well…for five minutes lang actually…then “nag break” uli sila…HAAYYYYY…nkk frustrate silang dalawa…nd k n ikukuwento ang love story nila…basta…last night’s episode…for those interested there’s a repeat mamya..7:30 pm..after Ross found out that Rachel..(who he had been in love with for 10 years)…has ‘feelings’ for him…biglang NAGULO ang mundo nya…kasi nagkaroon sya ng gf(Julie)...mga 5 episodes plang ang nkkraan…so syempre tinulungan si Ross nla JOEY ang CHANDLER!!!…gumawa sila ng listahan ng kapintasan nung dalawa…kay Rachel: a little bit into herself, a little spoiled, a little ditzy, just a waitress, *ito dagdag lang ni Joeyàhas chubby ankles..haha..ito yung sweet!!!..kay Julie: “Not Rachel…”…awww…so yun n nakipag break sya kay Julie…binalita nya kna Chandler and Joey, tas pumasok s Rachel…nalaman nya…yakapan (dito ako napasigaw ng “FINALLY”)…tas basta…5 minutes lang silang ‘together’…tas nakita ba naman ni Rachel yung listahan…NAGALIT SYA…so yun split n nman…

Last night din I watched Playing It Straight…reality TV…one girl then 15 ‘males’..?..the catch is, from the title, hindi lahat ay tunay na lalaki…mayroong mga bakla!…pag ang napili ng girl ay ‘tunay’ they’ll split a million $…pero pag gay…she’ll lose the million and the chance at love…nakakaaliw kasi everyone there claims that they’re straight…tas pag n eliminate cla…tatanungin cla “are you straight or are you gay?”…syempre amin nman…tas ntutuwa ako pag yung mga guess ko kung cnong gay eh tama…yung mga hindi mo p tlga akalain…so kagabi tatlo n lng ang natira…and I found out n andun pa yung CRUSH ko…c BANKS…software consultant…mabait, then n f feel ko n sincere ang intentions nya para kay Jackie and honest…unfortunately jackie had already set her eyes on SHARIF…hindi mo nman masisisi kasi gwapo tlga…pero umpisa p lng he already confessed n hindi sya ma iinlove kay jackie…pera lng tlga…pero hindi ito alam ni jackie…tas c Sharif lalaking lalaki ang dating…out of all of the guys there walang kumwestiyon sa pagklalaki nya…pero damang dama ko BAKLA yon!…

Tas kagabi rin Finale n ng For Love or Money 4…pinili nung couple ang LOVE…ows maniwala ako s inyo!…yung babae kasi…umpisa p lng puro Money n ang lumalabas sa bibig nya…parang pokpok p kung lumingkis sa 8 lalaking nandon…eewww…guaranteed n s girl yung million $ kung pipiliin sya ng lalaki over money…tas yun nga pinili nga nung guy yung LOVE…tas nung sya n alam n alam mo n n MONEY tas biglang nilukot nung girl yung million $ cheque…NAPAKA PEKE!…if I know pakana n ng producers yon!ibibigay rin non l8ter sa babae…kainis…

So after 2 months of hibernation (sembreak…bwahahaha…)…I’ve become a couch potato…more like a ‘bed’ potato…yuck!…but it had been fun and I learned a lot of things…

Sa uulitin…ciao…

...on Room 316

while I was watching Friends earlier...i suddenly remembered my room mates back in yupi...and 316 was our room number...3rd floor 16th room...2nd to the last room... nakakamiss din...kahit na 3 months lang akong nag dorm...nd ko makklimutan ang mga roomies k...let me tell you a little about Room 316...
anim kaming room mates: AKO, c LIBAY, c NAY, c Lyn, c Julie and c Iris

c Libay, nung una kong makilala siya ay isang comsci student, ngayon ay isa n syang bs stat..hehe...ito ang henyo ng 316 pagdating sa numbers..she's the only person i know who doesn't give up easily on something..and has this unquenchable thirst for learning..yung tipong mga pang Dr. PhD, PhD, PhD.

c Nay, all the way from Leyte, BS Chem and galing PhiSci..wow..ito naman all around henyo..pero mas pronounced ang pagiging writer..lam nyo ba sa yearbook nila..nagsulat siya ng story set in the future about sa kinahinatnan ng mga batchmates nya..astig..nd k kc alam yung writing form..basta ang alam k magaling..

c Lyn, c Julie and Iris. Lyn and Julie were former BA Socio, now Civil Eng n and c Iris ka course ko. Sa kanila ako mas naging ‘close’ siguro dahil na rin sa sila yung madalas kong nakikita kc yung naunang dalawa..gala..at siguro compatible ng kaunti ang mga scheds nmin..na mi miss ko yung mga kwentuhan nmin sa may study table sa hall..pati n yung pag kakain kami sa may table nmin sa loob ng room..at siyempre sa paghuhugas ng pinggan at kutsara..at pagtabi ko kay Julie pag natatakot ako..at yung sabay sabay kaming nag aayos ng mga gamit na dadalhin sa banyo sa pagligo..yung nagpapasama ako kay Lyn sa banyo pag brownout(UPLagingBrownout)..yung paghingi ko ng tulong kay Iris pag may writing assignment kmi..yung pag po post nmin ng messages sa kanya kanyang aparador..yung paghingi ng blue book pag nalimutang bumili..hiraman ng libro..yung sabay na pagbaba sa bundok kapag naiwan ng jeep ng dorm..yung kwentuhan namin about sa subjects, profs., crushes sa loob at labas ng dorm, sa mga magkasintahan n nkita nming naglalampungan sa canteen, sa kapit"room” namin na pinakikitaan daw ng mga multo.. marami pa kaso hahaba

malabo mang mabasa nyo mga room mates k…gustong kong malaman nyo na mahal ko kayo…at sa maikling pagsasama natin…REALITY became a more tangible thing for me…thank you very much…love you all…
Dadufalza's..hehe

...on carla's birthday celebration...and...

ganda ni carla yun lang ang masasabi ko...and of course may "performance" ang OLC para kay carla...we sang Because of You..

cge n nga dagdagan k pa...haayy tapos n nman ang araw n to...parang ang bilis ng oras pag nag eenjoy k tlga... imagine...naalala k p noong inimbita kmi ni carla...excited n agad ako n sumapit ang November 28...tas ngayon tapos n!...when you're with the OLCians...nd mo tlga mapapansin yung oras...

so yun na nga meeting place was at jabee merville...5:30...i was the first to arrive there...well...halos kasabay k rin lang c allen...nauna lang ako ng...5 hakbang...hehe...tas yun sunod sunod n cla...

ang mga nagpunta ay cna: ako, allen, fhrea, lei and vicente, theresa, saint, neal, shiella, toni, jayson and manel...nandon dn cna jaycee, kamylle and gary...

then while we were waiting for toni...sya n lng kc ang hinihintay nmin sa jabee...hirit b nman n lei...n wala n DAW cla ni vicente...tanong k p daw c chile...and kinuwento p daw nya kay shiella kgabi...syempre nd nman ako naniwala...mapagbiro nman kc yung dalwang yon...pero kc napanood k pa cna bernard and rica earlier s asap...ewan...sana hindi nga totoo...nkkdepress kc...ni hindi nga ako nanonood ng movies n ang ending ay tragic...tragic: may naghihiwalay, may namamatay, may hindi nagkakatuluyan...favorite couple k cla...CUTE NILA...gusto ko sila na ang magkatuluyan...kahit wla man akong say pagdating sa ganon...

isa cla s mga magagandang kaganapan sa mundong ito...para s akin...PARA SA AKIN HA!...walang kokontra...yun parang khit n gulong gulo na ako sa buhay ko ngayon at sa paligid... isa cla sa mga nagpaparamdam sa akin n there's still something good in this world so don't give up...kc parte cla ng buhay ko...ewan k s kanila...

pray n lng cguro ako...kung totoo man o hindi...na sana...SILA NA FOREVER!...selfish ba?

F.R.I.E.N.D.S.

Highly RecommendeD! you SHOULD watch at least one episode of FRIENDS and i promise you'll get hooked...SUPER! tanong nyo c april...hehehe...SOBRANG NAKAKATAWA TONG SHOW NA ITO! kung naghahanap k rin lng ng makakapagpasaya sa iyo...try this...
you can catch it on STAR WORLD 7 am/7:30pm/11pm Mon.-Fri. or Wowow 11pm Saturday or ABC5 7pm Monday
yun sa Star World start pa lng....Season One...yun sa Wowow and ABC5 nsa last season na...10th Season...imagine...kun d b nman mganda yan aabutin b yan ng ten seaons...d ba!!!!!

here's the lyrics to the theme song of FRIENDS...

I'll Be There For You
The Rembrandts

So no one told you life was gonna be this way
Your job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's DOA
It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year, but...

I'll be there for you
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)

You're still in bed at ten, though work began at eight
You've burned your breakfast, so far things are going great
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these
But she didn't tell you when the world was brought down to your knees that...

I'll be there for you
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)

No one could ever know me, no one could ever see me
Seems your the only one who knows, what it's like to be me
Someone to face the day with, make it through all the mess with
Someone I'll always laugh with, even at my worst I'm best with you - yeah

It's like you're always stuck in second gear
When it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year...

I'll be there for you
(When the rain starts to pour)
I'll be there for you
(Like I've been there before)
I'll be there for you
('Cause you're there for me too)

I'll Be There For You

...on answers

tagal na rin...huling entry k pla ay noong ika-lima ng setyembre pa...

what's new in my life...

well...first major news would probably be: ::drum rolls:: I AM FINALLY LEAVING YuPiElBi and I AM GOING TO TRANSFER TO MAPUA...

after a year and a sem at yupielbi i have finally put an end to it...

many would ask me this: WHY?...and i always find myself on the defensive...kasi nga nman...as some would say..."bakit ka pa lilipat e yupi na yon"...another..."lilipat ka pa doon sa mahal ang tuition"...then...”dpat noong umpisa pa lang..."...and the list goes on...

I know it would be unfair if I go trashing that they don’t have the right to question my decision…well I probably would 2 years ago…::sidetracked::…anyways

So WHY nga ba?..here are the reasons:

1) I wasn’t happy in my course…as simple as that…well when you really think about that HAPPINESS factor it won’t be that simple…there is much more beyond that simple word…I believe that I will not be productive when I become a Communication Arts graduate…I will not be able to fully realize and utilize my potential if I end up becoming a Communication Arts professional...I will be more helpful to our society if I follow my heart…
2) I know for a fact that to become succesful in that course you really have to excel in the communication skills, both in writing and in speech…I do well…but it won’t be enough…so this is kind of like a “career move”
3) I will not be able to survive life in yupi if I stayed another sem…proof of that is my experience in my last sem’s enrollment..oooh…just thinking of that…ahh!…I’m not exaggerating but it really is a traumatic experience…you see…originally I was only given 9 units…just imagine what I felt when I looked down on my form 5 and saw that I only have 3 subjects registered…what’s more is…picture this…almost ¾ of the student population has a case like mine…so it means there are many of us who have to prerog for subjects to complete 18 units…to prerog is to look up subjects you want to take up and then go to the professors who teach that subject and have him or her take you in his or her class…sounds easy ne?…but to be able to do this you have to take down the schedules of your choice of subj. and your choice of time and then go to the venue of that subj. to have the professor teaching that sign in your form 26…that’s the rule…you cannot personally see them in their cubicle or office it has to be on the schedule of your chosen time of class of that subj…another problem is the maximum no. of students per class is 37…there are subjects we can call “in demand”…you have so many competition for a subj. you really have to take…another thing is some teachers make it hard for the “preroggers”…they make us sing or dance in front of a class just to get a slot in that class…I even experienced “draw lots”…I wasn’t lucky..hehehe…it actually took me a week to finish my registration…inhumane!…so you understand now what I feel just thinking of going through that again next sem…of course hindi nman ganito lang kababaw…but this event had been the “last straw”…
but despite all these, I do not have any regrets…maraming pinabaon sa akin ang yupi…for that I really am grateful…being a part of that institution added a lot to my self confidence…”you are the ‘cream of the crop’ and the ‘2% of the whole population of the students who graduated from your batch’” as they say, has not gone down the drain…it’s a big thing for me…because I have little self confidence…

Well…I am struggling here to find the right words to express the whole story…because I am afraid that you’ll judge me…na tanga ako…na hindi ko lang siguro kinaya ang skul ko dati kayo ako nag transfer…na nagsayang lang ako ng oras…na tinapon ko lang ang lahat ng ganon ganon lang…puro sayang, sayang, sayang…

I may have prepared answers to justify my action…It may have taken me a page and a half to come up with this entry to answer questions…pero alam mo kapag ubos na ang mga kasagutan sa mga tanong mo at sa mga tanong ko meron pa akong isang nakatago: you just have to know when to give up.

…and that sums it up.

HAPPY 2!

Remember the entry about the UNO I got in the Chapter 1 I did…actually that entry is just below this one..hehe..well…and then I also mentioned there bout the Chapter 2 we were to do…well..well..well..I got an UNO again!…surprisingly…wasn’t really expecting it…
We were to choose one from the ten novels in the novel by Italo Calvino If on a winter’s night a traveler…???…you see…If on a winter’s night a traveler is a story of a reader (has no given name just called the “READER” but the rest of the characters are named) in search of the ten novels he never got to finish or never got to read up to the 2nd chapter
it started when he picked up a copy of the novel If on a winter’s night a traveler…later when he read it he found out that after the first chapter he won’t be able to read further because several signatures got duplicated…its like an experience of de ja vu…you are past reading page 17 and now in page 32 and then turning to the next page you discover you’re back again to page 17…dumoble…its like that…the reader sought the origin of the 1st chapter he read…learning instead that what he read was actually not If on a winters night a traveler…there was a mix up of the pages from that novel with another novel…so instead of replacing his copy with the real If on a winter’s night he opt to have it replaced with the novel he had started to read…discovering later that it is completely different from the one he has started reading…but still he read it and got hooked and once again…malas siguro talaga sya…found out that the rest of the chapters are composed of blank pages…reader went to the source of all these..the publisher..this went on…encountering different problems like plagiarism, with the real author, etc…leading him to the reading of 10 chapter ones from 10 different novels…he got mixed up in the confusion until he cannot tell anymore which chapter one came from what novel and if those novels did exist or those chapters beyond the chapter ones he has read…the ending was he ends up reading the first novel he intended to read before all of these happened…If on a winter’s night a travel…ironic ne?
The interesting thing about this is that it is written in the 2nd person and the 10 novels are written in the 1st person narration…the 10 novels are also included there, well of course only the chapter ones…so it is like you are side by side journeying with the “reader”, step by step actually experiencing what the “READER” is going through…you actually get to read the chapter ones and also feel the disappointment and yun feeling n nabibitin just like what the “READER” in the novel feels as you read him…
After we finished this novel, someone from our class asked our teacher if those “novels” from the novel we just read exists…medyo magulo noh…it’s because the novel If on a winter’s night a traveler is not a conventional novel or written in the traditional way…it is a metafiction, a fiction of fiction reading the experience of reading…or another comparison is…it’s like watching the tv and in the screen you see someone also watching the tv…
Bottom line is I chose one novel from those 10 novels and did a continuation, a chapter 2…and I got an UNO…sinuswerte lng tlaga ako siguro or…hehehe…it’s really a good feeling, having your work appreciated…especially when the pressure is really tough…from the teachers who accepts nothing but excellence and from your co- students who makes you feel like you don’t deserve to be there…it uplifts the self-esteem…nobela na toh! Kaya OLC kaya natin toh!

HAPPY!

WAHAHAHA!

I did this paper in ENG4 ... and guess what?!

WAHAHAHA!

I got an UNO!

WAHAHAHA!

We were to create our own version of the 1st chapter of the novel If on a winter's night a traveler...

(excerpt from chapter one):
You are about to begin reading Italo Calvino's new novel, If on a winter's night a traveler. Relax. Concentrate. Dispel every other thought. Let the world around you fade. Best to close the door; the TV is always on in the next room. Tell the others right away, "No, I don't want to watch TV!" Raise your voice--they won't hear you otherwise--"I'm reading! I don't want to be disturbed!" Maybe they haven't heard you, with all that racket; speak louder, yell; "I'm beginning to read Italo Calvino's new novel!" Or if you prefer, don't say anything; just hope they'll leave you alone.

Chapter one is about how the Reader got his copy of the novel...so the thing we have to do is retell our own experience on how we got our own copy of the novel...sounds easy right?...but the thing is the chapter one is told in the second person narration...YOU...nywayz...

I really was shocked! when our prof returned our papers ... when I got hold of it ...uhh... can't believe my luck! ... maybe there really is a supreme being up there ... i haven't expected it ...

I would have forever questioned the sanity of my prof, for her to give me such a grade, had it not been for the comments she placed there in my paper ...
to cite some:
1st paragraph : "great beginning"
"This is so witty. First time I've read this."
"The only 'blight' to your Chapter One" *nagkamali lang ako sa tense ng word na bind, should be bound instead i typed bounded
ito ang nakakawindang: "The elegance of your writing 'matches' the elegance of the Times New Roman font. Third progression, full of clarity and the emotion (of your desperation for your copy) is fleshed-out. Good work!"

But then for a moment when I peeked at the paper of a classmate and saw that she also got an uno my happiness kind of went a notch down...coz i thought she gave us all a grade of 1 since it was about our own experiences...but when class was over and i had a chat with some comarts students taking ENG4 too under the same prof I have...i learned that most of them got a grade around 1.75-2.5...talk about ego trip!

I just can't seem to stop bragging about it ... coz you see ... last semester wasn't really "my sem" ... the highest i got in the paperworks was 2.25 ... but this sem ...ha... talk about a major resolution ... actually when i think of it now ... this sem the lowest grade i got is 1.25 for the paper i did on the comparison between reading and sex...all the rest are UNO!...

I am so grateful to that prof...Ms Amy Colanta...she will never know how she helped me gain my confidence back and made me believe in myself...she made me say "may ibubuga pala ako..."... she created a mark in my life ... like a primordial source of confidence ... where i can always go back to and have that self esteem, i always seem to lose, recharged... that whenever i feel like im on the end list of the "mga walang ibubugang estudyante" i can always go back to that episode in my life where someone appreciated my work enough to credit it with an uno...

...heavy drama na to...

I am ... HAPPY!... hope this continues...i guess when you really put your mind to it...everything is possible...add some passion and a piece of yourself to what you are doing...and voila...

sana tuloy tuloy na to...

so till next time...i gotta finish nman the Chapter 2...yes...tuwang tuwa ata yun prof kya nagpagawa nman ngayon ng Chapter 2...cge na bye...GOOD LUCK TO ALL!
HAPPY! *meron ba non?* HAPPY!

Season Finale of Gilmore Girls

4.22 - Raincoats and Recipes
written by: Amy Sherman-Palladino
directed by: Amy Sherman-Palladino
transcript by Patti Jo with assistance by Canopus

CUT TO LORELAI AND RORY'S HOUSE - BACK KITCHEN DOOR
[Rory opens back door]
DEAN: Hey.
RORY: How'd you know I was here?
DEAN: Your mom said she sent you on an errand.
RORY: Ah, you went right to the source.
DEAN: [ Chuckles ] Can I -
RORY: Sure.
DEAN: Thanks.
RORY: I'm just trying to find some CDs for the Dragonfly.
DEAN: I hear Taylor's a big hip-hop fan.
RORY: Oh, he hops with the hippest of them.

CUT TO RORY'S ROOM
DEAN: Your room looks the same.
RORY: Yeah, I tried that whole French revival thing, but it didn't really work for me.
DEAN: So, um, is it weird being back at home after being away for a while?
RORY: No, it feels completely normal.
DEAN: So, um [Chuckles] Today...
RORY: Yes, today.
DEAN: An interesting day.
RORY: I'd authorize a case study if I could.
DEAN: You know, I could be wrong, but somehow I had a feeling that maybe if Tom hadn't have come in when he did -
RORY: Dean?
DEAN: Yeah?
RORY: Lindsay.
DEAN: It's not working with Lindsay. I can't make it work. I've tried.
RORY: Are you sure? Because I've heard that the first two years of marriage are the hardest.
DEAN: We're not happy. She's not happy, and I can't make her happy.
RORY: I can't imagine that.
DEAN: It was a mistake, and I know that now. From the very beginning, it wasn't -
RORY: Wasn't what?
DEAN: It wasn't...
RORY: Maybe you could, um, go see a counselor or go away together.
DEAN: No, it's just -- it's over. We both feel it. I know we both feel it.
RORY: You and Lindsay?
DEAN: Yeah, me and Lindsay.
RORY: You both feel it's over?
DEAN: I tried. We tried.
RORY: Well, if it's over, I'm sorry.
DEAN: You are?
RORY: I'm sorry you're not happy.
DEAN: I'll be happy again. Things happen for a reason, right? [moves closer]
RORY: Right. I can't believe this is -- that we're... [moving closer]
DEAN: I can… [They kiss. Dean slowly lowers Rory to her bed.]

CUT TO LORELAI AND RORY'S HOUSE
[Lorelai enters front door running up the stairs]
LORELAI: Rory! Oh, my God. You're missing everything. [runs up the stairs] Grab those CDs and head back to the inn before you miss the cross-dressing midgets. That's where the night is headed. Oh! Things are happening -- big things, wow things. I have so much to tell you. [descends the stairs with box of Band-aids] Let me just open with this little tidbit -- Kirk running naked through the square. Of course, with all my careful planning and preparation, I forgot to bring Band-aids and a camera. I have got to learn that, always, without fail, Kirk equals camera. [sees Rory standing alone in kitchen] Hey, what's going on?
RORY: Dean came over to borrow something. [Dean exits Rory's bedroom to join her in kitchen]
DEAN: Yeah. [ Clears throat ] Thanks.
RORY: You're welcome.
DEAN: So, um, I should go. Um...bye, Lorelai.
RORY: Bye, Dean. [the door closes] So, I'm almost done getting the CDs together. I picked a wide selection so we'd have choices, and then I picked a bunch that probably only you will like, but it's good to have options.
LORELAI: [sighs and looks at Rory's rumpled bed] So, what did he borrow?
RORY: I'm sorry I didn't talk to you about it first. I know I promised I would, but I swear, I didn't know that this was going to happen. I mean, I didn't know he was going to show up tonight, and it just happened. It's awful for you to find out like this, I know, but everything's okay. I'm okay, and we were, you know, safe. So all those Trojan man jokes all these years really apparently stuck. And I'm lucky, too, because Dean, he's -- well, aren't you glad that it happened with someone who's good and really loves me?
LORELAI: But he's married.
RORY: You don't understand the situation.
LORELAI: Is he still married?
RORY: Yes, but -
LORELAI: Then I understand the situation.
RORY: It's not working out between them. They're not happy.
LORELAI: Oh, Rory.
RORY: He tried the best he could, but it didn't work. It's over.
LORELAI: [ Sighs ] He told you that?
RORY: Yes.
LORELAI: He told you he's leaving her?
RORY: Well -
LORELAI: He told you he's moving out, they're getting divorced, he's got a lawyer, they've divided up the monster-truck season tickets?
RORY: We didn't get around to discussing everything.
LORELAI: You didn't get around to discussing everything?
RORY: It was a crazy night.
LORELAI: You, of all people -- the girl who thinks everything through, the list maker -- you didn't bother to discuss those things before jumping into bed with a married guy?
RORY: He's not a married guy. He's Dean -- my Dean.
LORELAI: He's not your Dean. He's Lindsay's Dean. You're the other woman.
RORY: I told you, it's over.
LORELAI: It's not over until he's out of the house with the ring off.
RORY: He took the ring off.
LORELAI: Oh, my God, I don't believe this.
RORY: He's in love with me, not Lindsay.
LORELAI: Does Lindsay know that?
RORY: She's not good for him, okay? She lets him quit school and work himself to death and -
LORELAI: No, Rory, uh-uh, you can't be one of those girls who blames the wife for forcing the husband to cheat.
RORY: He wasn't cheating.
LORELAI: He was cheating, Rory. He was cheating, and you were cheating with him. There's no other way to spin that, kid.
RORY: I'm not spinning it, and I'm not a kid. I'm 19.
LORELAI: This is your first time. It's just not the way your first time was supposed to be.
RORY: Oh, and how was my first time supposed to be?
LORELAI: Well, first of all, it was supposed to be in a retirement home. And secondly, ideally, it was supposed to be with someone single.
RORY: My first time was with someone sweet and kind who loves me.
LORELAI: I didn't raise you to be like this. I didn't raise you to be the kind of girl who sleeps with someone else's husband.
RORY: You slept with dad when he was with Sherry.
LORELAI: He wasn't married to Sherry.
RORY: He was engaged, and she was pregnant.
LORELAI: So, this is all my fault? I set one crappy example for you, and you have no choice but to follow in my footsteps? [Rory turns and walks away.] Rory, what are you going to do now? Huh? Is there a plan?
RORY: I don't want to talk about it anymore.
LORELAI: I just want what's best for you, that's all!
RORY: I don't want to talk about it!
LOREALI: I just don't want you to get hurt, Rory. What if he doesn't leave her? Now you're all emotionally involved.
RORY: You're just mad because I didn't come running to you to discuss whether or not I was ready for this step. I decided it on my own.
LOREALI: Well, obviously, you weren't ready for this step. The very fact that you chose another girl's guy to sleep with proves that!
RORY: He was my boyfriend first!
LOREALI: But you dumped him! You rejected him! You picked someone else!
RORY: Stop it! [walks away]
LORELAI: Rory!
RORY: I hate you for ruining this for me! [Walks out front door and pulls on sweater. Dials a number on her cell phone]
LINDSAY: [answering phone] Hello? Hello? Hello?
[Rory hangs up and sinks to her knees. Lorelai exits the front door and watches her daughter sobbing on the front lawn.]

THE END of Season 4